Things are great... Or are they?
Again. New-ish breaking point. Same characters in the story, just a little bit further down the road. Once again things are on the up-and-up, but once again, at a time of my emotional need, all others are absent. Oh, they are here, and claim they are available to listen any time that I need them to. And maybe they really are available, but there are a number of reasons I just can't go to them to be able to talk it over with them. I can't go to them because I don't want to sound like a complainer. I'm not so sure if I want them to know my deepest, most raw thoughts. I am a man, and a soldier, and am not supposed to have "breaking points". I don't feel like I deserve the loving embrace of someone who just wants me to be heard, on account of feeling like this problem I am having is purely selfish. But probably the biggest two excuses that are keeping me back, are that S doesn't want "our dirty laundry" laid out for others to see, and I don...